“The miracle of the matter was that I had moved at least six times already, and every time I moved I found the application while unpacking. It was like a stalker. There was no way that after over ten years this application should be in my possession, but everywhere I moved, God moved with with me. He reminded me of the journey that was ordained for me from birth. It was weird- sometimes haunting- finding the application, but deep down inside I knew He was calling me. Sabine graduated before I could come. That is one thing that I remain sad about, but it was the push from those who knew that I should be here and their prayers drove me to surrender to God's invitation to partner with Him. My children finally said to me to go. They had been hearing about this journey from the time they were little and felt that I had completed my task of bringing them through school. They are young adults now, and felt that if I didn't obey now, I would never go. And so, with their blessing and full support, I walked into the halls of Andrews Seminary in August of 2018 and ever since then God has had to hear me repeatedly ask why I had not done this years ago. I transitioned from feelings of unworthiness to the hope that somehow my life's journey could help someone see God's faithfulness.
I thought that I was disqualified from ministry because the course did not take the sequence I thought it should, but as I have been repeatedly reminded, I may not have been ready to handle or appreciate the shaping here at the seminary if I came then. Now because of all of these life experiences, I am able to not only enjoy my time here, but apply real life to the training so that I can be effective and relevant. My children just asked that they not be given the burden that they see PKs have, and that was a deal I was able to give to them. We were a Christian family full of life and fun through the struggles and I would do my best to honor that so that our home would be as they wanted, free from the stigmas. But I would be able to serve God and my communities with freedom and that thing called love.”